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[06 Jan 2005|02:36am]
All I need is love.


And beanie weenies.
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Love is like a role that we play [04 Jan 2005|03:23am]
[ mood | weird ]

I'm feeling like all these different things. I just...I just want what I want. I wish someone would tell me what it is. I'm feeling negativity. I don't know. I love Georgia. I mean sometimes I am in Norman and just miss....the traffic? No.
I just miss it that's all. It's where I come from. But it's good that I am in touch with where I'm from because it helps me in my pursuit of where I'm going. I can't wait to get back to school. My schedule will be totally different and I can't wait for rehearsals. It's like I've been away from my life for almost a whole month and I can't handle it. I wanna get back and get settled and back to normal. Norman. Is it possible to change this much in a month?

I just wanna cry right now. Over nothing. Nothing is the same and that is hard for me. A little bit. But it's the same thing that makes me wanna get out of here and get back to what I couldn't wait for when I had to pine through all last year.
I feel like...I feel like high school and this place was one big waiting room and I was just waiting for my name to be called. And everything here reminds me of it. I sit in my room and remember when I did the same thing hating the world because I had to wake up at 7am and it was about what time it is now...knowing I was just gonna be tired at school all day long. Things are so different. Listening to Dashboard and I look up at the ceiling of my car and remember the time I was listening to Dashboard when I was doing my make up on my way to school and I accidentally jabbed the ceiling with my mascara. Leaving a nice black circle. Speaking of which, I don't know how well that will come out when it comes time to sell her. But I also remember some of the best times of my life here. And the breakthroughs that I made. It's funny how things go.

I can't believe how different I am. But that is my new challenge. Keeping everything in my head and my repertoire. Everything I have learned and picked up and discovered. No matter what. Not letting it go to waste or go away. The one thing that hasn't changed is how actor trained my brain is and the way I look at things. I'm tired.

I don't miss the unexplainable dramatics and the obessive romantic interests and rummaging for answers and piece of mind. But I do miss all of you. I do. And however you feel is understandable. Everybody does it. Just remember this okay?

I just need to take that pill again. That pill that makes me not care and just want to take the risks that I dreamed of. No not a real pill. College just looks good on some people. I just feel like if I stay here any longer I will crave the safeness. I HATE that. Some things here just make my jaw drop. Make me sad, make me angry. And it's like I'm not allowed to. I am a person, an adult who lives in this town. Not one of the seniors or one of the drama kids. I co-exist with you. Maybe you should learn how to treat people. I'm not the only one. Even if I hate you, what do you think?

Like I said I'm feeling a lot of things right now.
One of the feelings is that this post meant absolutely nothing.
I'm sure in a few days I will feel the complete opposite.
It was like free association. But I feel better now.
What the fuck.

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From an email, I had to share this [02 Jan 2005|03:00pm]
1st Place:

This year's runaway winner was Mrs.. Merv Grazinski of Oklahoma City, OK.

Mrs.. Grazinski purchased a brand new 32-foot Winnebago motor home. On

her first trip home (from an OU football game), having driven onto the freeway,

she set the cruise control at 70 mph and calmly left the drivers seat to go into

the back & make herself a sandwich. Not surprisingly, the RV left the freeway,

crashed and overturned. Mrs.. Grazinski sued Winnebago for not explaining in
the owner's manual that cruise control isn't automatic pilot. The jury awarded

her $1,750,000 plus a new motor home.
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[01 Jan 2005|05:12pm]
New Years was great. I had such a great time with everybody. It was exactly the crowd number I had wanted. I didn't want some huge bash, just cuz that coulda gotten out of hand. But it was perfect and everyone looked beautiful and we just had fun. Me and Kelly did an amazing job decorating and I gotta say it looked pretty flippin' sweet.

I'm just especially glad that Michelle got to come. I hadn't seen her in forever and she looked stunning. Like a french magazine model or something. And Melanie is a fox. She is the cutest thing and I'm so glad she came.

That is pretty much all I have to say about it. Only I wish the tv had been working downstairs when it was time for the countdown.

Except you. What you did is pathetic. My house is not on the way to anywhere. I don't care who was here. This is my house. We're in college. God, just give it a rest and go away. And that's it. Done.

Lunch with Galen and Gretchen tomorrow. I haven't seen those two gals in ages. I can't wait!!!
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To those planning on moving to Canada... [06 Nov 2004|11:15am]
To become a Canadian citizen you must:

be 18 years of age or older;
be a permanent resident of Canada;
have lived in Canada for at least three of the four years before applying;
be able to communicate in either English or French;
know about Canada;
know about the rights and responsibilities of citizenship;

The barriers some newcomers face include:

Non-recognition of international credentials and work experience;
Lack of Canadian work experience;
Inability to communicate in English or French;
Insufficient labour market information prior to immigrating to Canada;

These steps must be followed before you apply for a work permit:
An employer must first offer you a job.
HRDC must normally provide a labour market opinion or 'confirmation' of your job offer. However, some types of work are exempt from this process.
After HRDC confirms that a foreign national may fill the job, you apply to CIC for your work permit.

Courtesy of: http://www.cic.gc.ca/english/citizen/

By the time all of that shit has been taken care of, King Georige will be out of office. Plus, I'm sure moving to another country for 6 months with the money that you left with (exchange rates are a bitch) and no job wouldn't be all that choice ...so maybe the land of the free doesn't sound so bad? And if it does...and you hate George Bush that much, then I will help you pack your bags! But hey I just thought since it's such a strong consideration for so many people who got "screwed" in this election that I'd provide some facts.

Moving to France instead? Nope. The French hate you.

oh yeah :) [09 Sep 2004|03:26pm]
new screen name: ohyouash08
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[16 Aug 2004|11:57pm]
From Me to You

If there's anything that you want,
If there's anything I can do,
Just call on me and I'll send it along
With love from me to you.

I've got everything that you want,
Like a heart that is oh, so true.
Just call on me and I'll send it along
With love from me to you.

I got arms that long to hold you
And keep you by my side.
I got lips that long to kiss you
And keep you satisfied, oooh.

If there's anything that you want,
If there's anything I can do,
Just call on me and I'll send it along
With love from me to you.
From me, to you.
Just call on me and I'll send it along
With love from me to you.

I got arms that long to hold you
And keep you by my side.
I got lips that long to kiss you
And keep you satisfied, oooh.

If there's anything that you want,
If there's anything I can do,
Just call on me and I'll send it along
With love from me to you.
To you, to you, to you.

I can always turn to The Beatles for answers. Always.
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Love is like a role that we play [13 Aug 2004|05:58pm]
What an unspeakably gorgeous day. At first I went shopping and had lunch with my mom and our friend Regina and she gave me my birthday/going away presents and I loved them.

I came home and decided that I couldn't stand being in my car, out of the sun for one more second. I laid out a blanket in my backyard and read the rest of The Glass Menagerie. It was wonderful. The afternoon was I mean. I read for a little while and took a nap. Even more wonderful. And then I woke up and finished the rest of the script. I actually loved it. The Glass Menagerie. You all should read it at some point in your lives. Especially guys. Looking for good monologue material. Not kiddin'.

And today I talked to God, for the first time in a really long time, in the way that I did today. Also wonderful.
I think I am quite done however. Pining after certain things that just aren't there anymore, for whatever reason. These are my last few days. I need to make them about me.

I will be at Caribou tonight.
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[12 Aug 2004|10:40pm]
And also,

On Sunday I am having my birthday party slash going away party at my house and it starts at 3PM. And it'd be awesome if a lot of you could stop by for even just a mere few minutes if it conflicts with your schedule, cuz I understand. Cuz I am sure I will be at Caribou hangin' out maybe one of the nights next week before I leave but....for most of you those are school nights. As is Sunday but it won't be late. Pretty much I just want whoever to stop by so I can say goodbye to you and stuff like that.

Please comment if you think it'd be possible for me to see you!!!
And your presence will be present enough. So no gifts please. That's especially goes out to my fellow poor college students.

And Hallie and Sherry I need my soundtracks back! Hey bring them on Sunday if I don't see you at Caribou this weekend or whatever!
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[29 Jul 2004|06:11pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Tara Reid is the worst actress on the planet.

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I like this one too [01 Jul 2004|02:52am]

Mostly because that was my favorite costume. Thank you KDM!!!
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CONTACT INFO [17 Jun 2004|11:37am]

If you are someone who I am friends with, no matter how close, and I would like to keep in contact with you next year and/or you would like to keep in contact with me, please completel the following:

1. Your first and last name
2. Your home number
3. Your cell phone number.
4. Your email address
5. Your birthday
6. Your IM name


I better see a buttload of comments!!!
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To all Seniors 2004 [25 May 2004|01:23am]
So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Don't let me let you go
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GRADUATION PARTY [24 May 2004|04:11pm]
Saturday May 29th
@ 7:30PM
My House
All of you are invited! Please please let me know if you can come!

Ask for directions if you need them!

My screen name is astella1023 and my phone number is 770.289.6561
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[20 May 2004|11:20pm]
Did you want to know a seek-ar-aite?
Did you want to know what it schwas?
I tell you what it schwas.

I am going to miss Al so very much.

He is the schfourteen-teenth person on my list of people I will miss so much.
But I tell him not to worry because it is better than being the schfifty-fifth person on the list.
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[14 May 2004|11:09pm]
I am excited about the tribute.

I think it's gonna be hilarious.

Let's just all go enjoy banquet and concentrate on all the good things that have happened this year.
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[10 May 2004|12:41pm]
I stayed home from school today because Allison told me NO ONE would be at school.

Kristin went to first period but came home, confirming that going to school today would have been a complete waste.

I woke up at 11:45. And I feel glorious. I cleaned up. And I'm about to take care of my orientation and housing stuff.

Good day.
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[10 May 2004|01:19am]
I was just saying, it'd be NICE.

You won't stop making excuses for how immature it is to keep breaking the law and putting her in danger and none of us are going stop having a problem with it.

Can't always get what you want, I guess.

Haha, she just never quits, does she?
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Just a thought [09 May 2004|11:40pm]
Sarah Bob is my friend.

Sarah Bob is Allison's friend.
Joel's friend.
Krissie's friend.
Robert's friend.
Liz's friend.
Etc etc etc etc etc.

She is A LOT of people's friends.

All of these friends live in Forsyth County.

I'd really love for Sarah Bob to be able to come see me and all of the people who love her without having to peel out of the parking lot for fear of getting thrown in jail for someone else's lack of self-control.

That'd be nice.
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[08 May 2004|10:08am]
I feel so accomplished.

I'm so proud of everyone.
When you do something without someone's help (IE: Mrs. Denney) and you do it yourselves (IE: Me and Court, Allison, Joel, Krissie, and David) and it goes *well* you can't help but feel fantastic about it.
We all did that ourselves.
I mean we coordinated getting the set, I coordinated getting all the props, Courtney got all our t-shirts, I directed the show and Courtney helped with choreography and cleaning and running and fixing and the whole show was ours. We did it. Whatever one of us did, the other watched it and tweeked it. We both coordinated getting the music. *Everything* was us. And the best part about it is that we got such an amazing cast who took our direction. That was the BEST part about it. Is that we were willing to give so much towards the rehearsals and putting the show together and that our cast was just as willing to take the direction and be awesome at it.
We thank you guys SO much.
And I thank you Court for being such an amazing partner in all of this. I love you so much.
I'm so glad for Allison.
I'm really glad for her that she got to have that role. And ya know, it's turned out to be a great experience and it sucks because of the way it had to happen, but everything happens for a reason. And the show was beautiful. It was such a hard project to take on. We all took on hard projects if you think about it. But this show was serious, very advanced, and it could have been illustrated in several ways. And while I was watching it it all just finally hit me. The colors and the way the set was arranged. And all those nuances and ideas and symbols were hers. She did it. And Rebecca did such a great job. And I couldn't be more impressed with Olivia. I was very impressed with her at the dress rehearsal from what I saw, but last night she was fantastic. The one thing I look for when I see, especially a serious show, is if they understand their own emotion as their character. It sounds so stupid and simple but most people do not even understand why they're crying or what they are fighting for and what their reasons are for anything. Olivia completely embodied this character. She made it completely her own and she connected so well. I'm SO PROUD of her. She blew everyone away.
Congratulations girls.
I'm so excited for all of us. Krissie's show went very well, everyone seemed to love it. I was so impressed with all of her women. Especially Lissa. She had the smallest role but for the most part she was my favorite one. Lee as expected was great. Courtney Grey impressed me also. She played a new character and it was strong! Lindsey was awesome at applying all the notes that we gave her to the show. She did such a great job.
It was so much fun just having that small little blurb in Joel's show.
I know at first what he really wanted was to do the Laramie project and I thought it was great that he was so honest with all of his cast about it the night of his show. And that originally his heart was not in All in the Timing but that isn't true anymore. And I'm glad that isn't true anymore. Because the show was so hilarious. Everyone LOVED it. I think we all forget that this is supposed to be a learning experience, not only for the first time directors, but for the actors as well. They should keep on learning. And for his cast, they started out with not a lot of experience, but by the time the show was over, they knew an entire world more than they did at the start. And the show not only worked, the show went incredibly well.
I can't wait to see David's show.
I caught about a little less than half of it the other day and just as I thought, it is damned hilarious.
I'm not kidding. H I L A R I O U S.
We all have overcome some obstacles, but David Sterritt, I admire you.
We all had our shows at our disposal every day in first period. And not that it takes away from our dedication and how much we wanted our shows to be awesome too.
But you have been rehearsing your show since January. Granted, it's a pretty difficult show to do in a short amount of time, but my point is is that you utilised every second you were afforded and you pulled it all together with virtually little to no help at all. And you also were blessed with an awesome, ingeniously hilarious cast. Break a leg tonight you guys. I will be laughing my ASS off in the audience, you'll hear me.

I finally got a good night's sleep. Yesterday I couldn't get to sleep til 3am and then I woke back up at 8am and couldn't get back to sleep. And then I went full speed ahead all day long. Last night I got home and I crashed and buuuurned. And I slept til 10. I needed it so badly. And now today, I can really chill. I have a few things I need to do today but not really regarding Charlie Brown. Everything will be there when I get there. And all I really need to do is get dressed and go and get excited! YAY!!!
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